Glistening seas

 

When it gets into your bones,

like love washing over you,

euphoria mornings in blissful sun,

or evenings of sin sunken

into a breaking moon.

It’s like flying

on the wings of a dream.

The feeling of music

as it sings to your soul.

 

The raised emotion given wave form.

 

And on those oceans, we flow.

Our limbs move in rhythmic time

with the depths below, the smoke

that blows across us

like fog covered seas, our bodies

imitating trees, our souls set free.

The feel of music

as it caresses your heart.

 

Leaves you feeling

like those seas being torn apart.

 

And as the waves roar and crash,

soaring thoughts thrash in the dark,

fear leaves the soul,

hope takes its place 

deep in the heart, and the

rhythm clicks in your mind,

your legs tick in time,

your hands mimic the clock and 

the waves crash a final chorus line.

 

And as the song drifts into the night.

We are a shoreside under moonlight.

Glistening with the joy of life.

Hedgehog without spikes

 

My mind cycles back

sometimes, sending shockwaves

over my foggy island mind,

and I'm there again.

 

Pushed down, kicked in the ribs.

All I can do to resist is curl up into a ball,

a hedgehog without spikes,

and wait until boredom starts to hit,

or the sun starts to fall.

 

I hear the tick, tick, ticking of time.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Another kick,

another sick feeling

in the pit of my soul.

An easy target. Alone and aloof,

uncomfortable in my own skin

just clinging onto my truth.

 

I wasn't like you; I wasn't like them.

I was different, that made me fair game.

And in my own ADHD way

I accepted it. I even carried the blame.

I could take the beatings.

I could take the hits,

because at least in this storyline, I exist.

 

All through my youth into adulthood,

this continued. Gradually easing

but never fully ceasing.

 

But at no point did I ever raise a fist,

because I don't see violence

as a way to end conflict.

I learnt to stand prouder,

but I also learnt to sink lower,

I stood up when I needed

and took to shadows

when I felt I had no more to give

or anywhere left I could go.

 

For so long I let life pass me by,

or walked into oncoming traffic,

taking refuge in the arms of narcissists.

 

I let them push me, pull me,

prod me, choke me,

and I complied.

And when she hit me...

I took it.

When she hit me,

I accepted the blame.

It must've been my fault.

I must have been in the wrong. 

And I complied.

 

For so long I let life pass me by,

but no more. Not now.

Now I have found my why,

the reason I wake every day,

the power inside.

The magic in the pen.

I walk with pride in my stride.

 

I don't fear the bullies,

the liars and the cheats,

I don't whimper at their feet,

because I know that my truth is real.

I still feel every scar, every bruise,

but from each of those I healed,

 

and after all other

beatings life has given,

mentally and physically,

I've stood on my own two feet,

so, I'm not asking for pity,

or for you to see me as weak.

Just see me is all, accept

when I say I love,

that love is what I offer to all.

Blame game

 

Narrow-minded men

bang hollowed-out chests,

like drums draped

in Union Jack symbolism,

A symptom.

Rally round,

let’s play the blame game.

Jump on the merry go round

and we will take potshots

again, and again. Bang. Bang. Bang.

Insecure?

Doesn’t it crawl within, that feeling?

Inadequate. Left behind.

Always wanting more.

 

IT MUST BE SOMEONE ELSES FAULT, RIGHT?

 

Sure. Blame can never

sit at our own doors.

 

Well, here I am to lay it out

like a welcome mat.

The people you fight

are not the ones

holding you back,

and our shame can sit

wherever it pleases.

 

Its more complex than that. But firstly

you need to look in the mirror

and see that what is looking back

is just another human.

Not a god. Not the chosen.

Just another human.

The same as the ones you blame,

another soul along for the ride,

and that the truth... Humanity

is full of so much beauty,

can undo so many lies.

 

The power currently sits with those

who tell you how to think,

how to feel. They tell you that

you have to be angry,

that other people

are taking your rightful place.

 

Well, I'm sorry but no one

owns any part of this space.

We are one human race,

we just happened to land

in the spot we call home

and the tone of your skin

doesn’t make a superior man,

that only comes from the heart within.

 

BUT IT MUST BE THEM, RIGHT?

THEY ARE DIFFERENT. NOT LIKE ME.

 

And this is the

second trick the devil played.

Telling us that difference

is to be seen as something

to be shunned, not something

to which we should run.

It should be seen as wonderful.

Artists and writers,

musicians and playwrights

all saw the light,

but you are blinded

by the lies printed in

sun-emblazoned headlines.