Blush

To tell you how I feel, you would blush

you would run as your feet start to rush

so I let feelings sleep, meet them in dreams

where they can be free like sunbeams

Don't allow the dreams to sway me, they would betray

the emotions within, not to see the light of day

just between me, the stars, moon and sky

silently floating into the air, where only I see them fly

But if I was to let you hear my thoughts, let you see

if I was to open my heart, let the words flow free

they would sing, of how you make me whole

you give me a smile, that lifts my soul

You kiss me with words that flow from your lips

eyes pierce my heart with arrows, and the beat skips

when you put me down, its like I've been killed and no one mourns

if you hurt, I feel every sting like I'm being pulled through thorns

When fear preys on my mind, you are like a ray of brightness

a guide in the dark against the demons of unkindness

when I am alone my thoughts speed, as my pen bleeds

I hear my screams, when I am with you they recede

So in dreams they sing, their song laid bare

these thoughts, feelings that forever live there

every night, in the sleep that takes me away, on a flight

to a world of words, that I can never recite

Thanks for reading,

Peace & Love,

Kyle.

 

4:00 am

Waiting so long, endless it seems, sleep eludes me

Feeling numb, my brain has gone wrong, where is the release

just passing lonely hours watching shadows prance

as the sounds of the night lead my mind on a long dance

Tried counting sheep, they departed as my thoughts started

flowing like reflective word rivers, into places uncharted

all comes flooding, the banks have broken, I'm drowning

the crushing wall of words, memories, crashes down on me

Swept by on a tide of ideas, failings, feelings and fears

the current so fast, dragging me down, the bed so near

these depths so murky cant get a glimpse of light

just another long, lonely, dark night

Is that the sun, just off in the distance

or the moon mocking my existence

don't know what is real or imagined, cant take much more

my eyes, attuned to the dark, the clock says four

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

 

The Night Watchman Returns

Patiently peering past

patrolling perilous parts

pacing precarious ports

protecting, projecting, promising, peaceful paths

Every night he is on call

Watches, whilst weariness wears

waits whistling when woe wails within

when wraiths wage wrathful war 

works wordlessly, while worlds weakest worry

He keeps us safe when night-time falls

Midnight, moonlight, morning merely muttering, muted 

misty mirages masquerade menacingly

mean monstrosities manoeuvre

more monsters materialise

He will never fail or drop the ball

Fiercely, furiously, forces foes further

fearless figure fights fretfulness

forwards for freedom from fearful fantasy

fiends foiled, frozen forever

The night watchman will heal your dreams, one and all

Thanks for reading.
Peace, love and sweet dreams.
Kyle.

Hear your name

Hear your name whispered, sings a song of belonging
beneath the gaze of this old tree, longing
the breeze carried my wish, could it touch your ears
and hold us together for all the years

Hear your name in the pouring of rain, it sings a loving refrain
high above the towns below, dreams unchained
the waters carried my hopes, could it reach your lips
before my heart gives way and rips

Hear your name rolling in with the tides, and my fears subside
here on this empty beach, to the sands I confide
if the ground could speak, it would sing of all my wishes
of the promise I bring to you, all my love and kisses

Hear your name in the call of birds, singing of romantic worlds
here in this house, my home, I write the words
when you hear their song, do they speak my name
and does the song set your heart aflame

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Heart in a bottle

Left my heart in a bottle, as the sun went down

my soul with a barmaid, as the night came around

drank with the devil under the pale moonlight

he made me promises, my will took flight

A slice of life with a dash of ice

topped to the brim, whisky tastes so nice

the fire within, burning uncontrollably

took me away, left me a nobody

Left my mind on that table, the liquid spilled forth

fell out of the world, into the deep, dark earth

took a sip, a gulp from the fountains of hell

a taste like copper, body rots, inside my broken shell

On the rocks, my body gives way to the pain

as red clouds rain down, that metallic tang again

The wails as sirens call, lights flashing as I fall

a blood stained hand print on the wall, and I'm floating above it all

Thanks For Reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Book of Secrets

This book of secrets, too many to share

the tales within, mine to bare

into a land of fantasy we fall

where we can be anyone at all

This book of shadows, my legacy, a journey

a journal about a mind set free

a word painted world for all to adore

the land of the night, into dreams we pour

This book of the night, where the mind goes in wonder

soaking in memories, moments to ponder

through visions so vivid, into worlds of colour

the love and laughter, ours to discover

This book of my life, a diary in verse

words twisted into fiction, with which to immerse

the feelings all real, they tell of a life

lived in the heart of the darkest nights

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Weird?

Who are you to call me weird? think me a freak
whilst you sheepishly follow the herd and bleat
who made you the judge, are you really that vain?
is your life so mundane, what do you hope to gain?

If life is so perfect, then why show such fear
what scares you so? the differences on show? why the sneer?
Is it the smile I wear, the fact that I wont take the bait?
or is it just that you cant relate?

If you open your mind, you may find a wild ride
a world with so many wonder filled, magic moments inside
difference should be welcomed, with arms wide open
so why should we want any of this to be broken?

Small minded world view, only see the same as you
missing so many adventures, a story brand new
this world will stand united, not divided by hurtful lies
So keep trying to make us fall, we will always rise

As we hear the calls, the love for all
we will break a path through the walls
as we reach our goals, the future a dazzling prize
blinding like the sun, the differences washed from our eyes

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Dead from the brain up

Emotional flat line, just a dull nagging sound

dead from the brain up, my bed the burial ground

in this, my realm, I'm the king, yet I don't feel a thing

mentally drained, on a downwards flow, spiralling

Fog surrounds, a gas cloud, feels like drowning

sputtering, my voice lost in the crowd, pressure mounting

mind grinding, a grating ache fills the dead space

grey matter no longer working at pace, shredded, going to waste

Emptiness, nothing less, just a drag to lift my head

no anger, hurt, or joy, just a void, a weight like lead

vacant stares, blankness all I can muster, look to the sky

a blanket of sadness, no feeling left under, no tears to cry

Stuck on auto pilot, the flight goes on

but I will stick the landing when the time comes

a little fragile, but brittle is better than broken

feelings will return, coursing like a river to an ocean

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love

Kyle

Prisoner of the Heart book

Paperback and Kindle editions now live.
So here it is, my 2nd collection of poems.

This collection takes a journey into the prison of the heart.
It touches on many aspects of love,
from its highest peaks to the deepest lows.
The joys and pains, feel your heartbeat race
so take a tour amongst the chains, let it embrace
Just be aware, from the prison of the heart,
there is no escape, none depart.


And seeing as it is almost christmas I have reduced the price on my first book until January.
They make great stocking fillers, if your stockings are book shaped, if not then they go equally as well wrapped in shiny paper underneath a christmas tree....


Thanks for reading

Peace & Love

Kyle.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1731442475/

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Prisoner-Heart-Kyle-Coare-ebook/dp/B07KMKSM29

Hated

Needed to be hated, to feel berated

blamed myself for all life fated, left deflated

for my imagined bad deeds, I fed the belief

I kicked out, pushed away, to punish me, a release

All those times I cursed as if under a spell

needed to be alone in my own private hell

like a demon possessed my tongue, I let it cut you

I spat out the poison that tore right through

Craved punishment, for all the things said in vain

all the times I swore I'd never get burned again

Smashed my world to pieces, broken, I scattered into the breeze

needed to be free, floating for years, to find my peace

Like a smile in a bad dream, started to regain my gleam

a hug in the darkest hours, the hurt just an inwards scream

the hands that held on when the sun went away

those who loved during those dark days

A flash as the past crashes, now the future looks bright

an ocean of love, all I have left, swim deep like in flight

under a waterfall of emotions, years of hurt washed clear

flowing free, peace fills the atmosphere

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love

Kyle.

Wish

Wasted years getting here, letting fears produce tears
made a wish, as grey clears, a day with you standing near
could you fulfil my request, I'm stressed I confess
need you here, free me from this lonely house arrest

Internally I whispered my longings wordlessly
as I pray to see, a life with you into eternity
our story ascending, no last page impending
no finale, just our happiness, never-ending

All those missed dances, the stolen glances
if only id stopped seeking answers, just took my chances
stopped fearing the beast, that stood leering
then today we would be smiling, not sneering

In between words spoken, silences speak of a world broken
what I don't say, never gets in the way, the lost emotion
Could I place a wish on that star, would it reach this far?
would it paint over the scars, cure the heart?  

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Unwanted guest

Stress test, a tight chest

breathing too fast, this unwanted guest

frustration rises, losing control

falling down this bottomless hole

Words painted behind closed eyes

thoughts pour, a constant roar, mind paralysed

hands shake, body quakes, deep down I ache

muscles tense, nothing makes sense, how much can I take?

Lost focus, brain races, heart paces

missing motivation, I cant face this

Forgotten days, lost track of nights

worry, the only feeling that fits right

Teeth grind, dry mouth, I'm crying out

tears spill, this pain inside, screams and shouts

Will it end, this stormy day? the oncoming train

the flood in my brain, the pouring rain

Anxiety, a drain on my mental stability

when everything feels beyond my ability

loneliness hurts, yet talking is too much

fear holds my hand, with its delicate touch

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love

Kyle.

Indivisible

Try to divide us, we will rise
hand in hand, side by side
now is the age of unity
forget differences, see the beauty

You try to make us hate, pull us apart
but we stand proud, hands on heart
with your bigoted hate fuelled lies
you're a dinosaur,  we are the comet that flies

Where you see an enemy, I only see artistry
in the things around me
where the world doesn't fit your view
that isn't our problem, it sits firmly with you

The things you don't understand, are wrong in your eyes
but you are missing out on this life's greatest prize
the charm and wonder, the cultures that shine on
the love that we dine on, the future a bright one

Try to fill us with hate, the enemy at the gate
yet the only adversary to peace is this sorry state
boundaries, borders, walls and armed forces
set to stop us from seeing all the life that courses

Peace and love are not just words to be spat
they are a way of life, we give hope as a welcome mat
This world is ours, to share, so just be aware
hate will always be defeated by those who care

Bring your hate to our doors, we will fall no more
our collective hearts may bleed, but the love is pure
these lands, a playground, the earths vast expanse
a place for all to dance, so lose the hate and take a chance

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Lost in a dream

Can you picture the scene, unclean, unseen
A lost boy in a dream
so alone, in a room filled to the brim
with people who love him

Symbolism tearing at his heart, it parts
lets get back to the start
smiles froze, oceans no longer flow, that red rose
his only escape, a flower, his lover sows

Devil in the details, it creeps, sneaks, take a peak
the lost boy can no longer speak
such a fragile, delicate being, the petals fall
ground covered in the remnants, his head hits the wall

Lost in this dirty world, his life unfurled
there in his bubble, the thoughts swirled
the flower left to curl up, rotten, forgotten
a downward spiral, approaching rock bottom

Picture the view, a room for two, the sunset's hue
the light hit the room, the rose regrew
no longer lost, the boy was found, bad thoughts drowned
the night left him spellbound

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

11-11

Smoky haze, in the cold November air

to mark the day, cannons blare

the day the guns fell into silence

conversation began, an end to violence

No more we said, never again, how wrong we were

the guns went quiet, a lull in the fighting there

a chance to air some sense and let the violence cease

stop the blood from staining the lands, bring peace

With death they flirt, in this bloodstained dirt

the lives taken without thought, never forget the hurt

saw sense for the first time, as the end neared

the guns stopped firing, gunpowder filled air clears

Stand in silence like those weapons did

remember the loss, man created

remember the hurt we cause

the pain we bring

there are no "good" wars

lets shed a tear even if they sting

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle

Never Noticed

When did the song come to a stop?

did the disk skip a track, did the power drop?

never noticed the silence before

now it is deafening, a soundless roar

Where did the love go?

was it all just for show?

never noticed the way the light shifted

until darkness descended and my world drifted

Where did it all go wrong?

was it something said or done?

never noticed the way the cold tore through the room

no warmth, the sun displaced, replaced by gloom

How did it come to this?

did the love ever really exist?

never noticed the way your hand held mine

now my hand feels empty, heavy, unkind

When did the laughter start to annoy?

all those smiles, the tears of joy

never noticed the look in your eyes

now I see them in my mind, I want to cry

What caused our downfall?

a collapse, our walls crashed down on us all

never noticed you there

and now its too late, you looked elsewhere

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Poison

Pouring in the poison, killing my mind

just blanks out the sun, years of night time

drink to escape, I'll see you at my wake

leave the world to crumble, this my last mistake

A kick to the ribs, you pour down on me

hollow inside this yellow tinged shell, set me free

pressure cooker feelings boil over

emotionally dried out, ending ever closer

Fall and choke, can feel the stars going out

a sound rushes my ears, as I start to blackout

colour disappears, downcast air, my vision blurs

grey skies, dark clouds, voice slurs

Only red remains, dry mouth, bled a critical amount

feels like I'm rotting inside, empty like my bank account

just want this to stop, body in shock, keep losing time

why do I keep saying I'm fine? cut down in my prime

As the room fades to black, I want to come back

not ready to fall to this attack

a journey to take, no way to know the length

it wont be easy, but I'll find the strength

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Snapshot

Cant feel, emotions ran dry
tears wont fall, though I need to cry
a snapshot, the clocks all stopped,
Polaroid picture scene, of a time I forgot

Photograph album, filled with scraps
memories that I cant attach, so many gaps
days lost to time, tattered picture in a frame
was that taken in a dream? nothing feels the same

Lifeless empty house, lost moments I cant find
just the haunting grey loneliness, that sits upon my mind
beg to feel again, find a way through
plead to ache, to smile, to laugh, anything will do

Mind a scattered jigsaw of broken fragments
just a well of emotions run stagnant
no way to piece it all together
when my head is filled with bad weather

A song plays on the radio, stirring my senses
lets me look back at the past, through all new lenses
that melody remains, reminds me of good days
A smile, emotion at last, as I walk out of this haze

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Ghosts

Visions in darkness, snapshots of a scream

spectres in my nightmares, haunting all my dreams

spirits forever wailing, an eerie deathly sound

an icy chill clings, like a mist all around

Ghosts in the night or just tricks of the light

bones weak and weary, they creak, as fear forces flight

the shadow in the corner, watching menacingly

waiting for me to close my eyes, What does it want with me?

The apparition appears, when the sun goes away

inside I scream silently, my voice too scared to stay

this phantom pervades my peace, shatters my self belief

crashes and clatters, like a poltergeist, gives me no relief

This visitor before me, invading all my thoughts

creeps into old memories, ties my brain in knots

until the sun comes up, cuts through the gloom

bathes the room in light, no more thoughts of doom

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Empty shelves

Don't have a lot on offer, or much to give

just all of my being, down to my last breath

like a supermarket with bare shelves

nothing in stock apart from myself

Don't have many possessions, no riches to share

just my mind, body, soul and heart laid bare

a market stall, closed to all

an empty table, with just me to call

I can give all I have, every drop of air

because your smile means hope and care

An empty cupboard, a closet left devoid

a blank slate, with just my words to enjoy

Dont have many material goods, but I wont beg steal or borrow

just be all I can, as I grow, in time, today and tomorrow

an empty shop, Abandoned, left to rot

just a a vacant lot, but I will give everything I've got

I dont need a lot, just a smile, three words at a time

in return I give all that I have, all that is mine

you fill my world with more than treasure

your love brings so much pleasure

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Day at a time

You survive, strive to build yourself a life

a day at a time, baby steps along a fine line

Wake up everyday, even when the clouds are grey

ready to pour, cant keep the thoughts at bay

Wash the grime clear, still the darkness holds you dear

all those cold rainy days when thunderclouds loom near

you keep fighting on, when all around feels wrong

the miles walked, stumbled and crawled, help to be strong

The world crushes, a ten tonne weight on your shoulders

every single day just an ache as you get older

always a struggle to relate, when your smile is fake

and the nagging inside, you just can't shake

You get up when your feeling down

smile when all you want is to frown

put on a brave face

even when you are losing the race

When the demons are beating at the door

you keep going, knowing there will be more

but you never give in, cant let the darkness win

each day find a new thing, makes life worth living

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Words left unsaid

If I Whisper the words, let them drift to the stars

would they reach your ears, or float away to mars

would they evaporate before they reach the clouds

lost in the atmosphere, would they rain back down

If I speak the words in an empty room

would you somehow know, would you hum the tune

or would they just live there, spectres in the air

ghosts of emotion laid bare

If I shout them loud, or write them down

would you hear the cries or read the lines

or would they just be words with no meaning

left to age without feeling

If I sing the words, a song with a melody

would you listen intently

or just dance to the beat, missing the point

as you shuffle your feet

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Time

The pendulum swings, as the heart no longer sings

just passes lonely hours, and the pain they bring

the ticking never stops, even if I remove the clocks

the look on my face, shows that the chimes have struck

As sand grains trickle, oh time so fickle

with each passing day I feel a little more brittle

as the arrow of time flies past, so fast

all the memories have breathed their last

The hands of the clock keep turning, left yearning

for those days when the fire was still burning

As a child it all seemed so long, how wrong

now left wondering where the day has gone

Has the moment passed? are we living in the past?

when we have time to live, a future so vast

so we carry on, with a new day, a new song

and enjoy the fruits of our time, however long

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle,