Panic Attacks Spoken word video

Another Spoken word video! this is for panic attacks, best listened to wearing headphones, or maybe with volume off you decide!!!


Thanks for watching, Peace and love
Kyle.

Survivors

We are the survivors, striking back through words

the world tried to drag us down, we took a different road

took a beating but never fell to our knees

we held on tight, you and me

Kept going when things tried to break us, survivors throughout

nothing in this place could shake our lives or ever bring doubt

pain endured gave us a strength

hope built as we kept trouble at arms length

Survivors, we stuck to our guns

never letting anyone control our fun, break our runs

we fought to the death, and back again

braver from every hint of pain

Survivors of this war of minds, ours clear, a place to exist

outliving all who try to stamp us down, we resist, even when they persist

we are the same, just different clothes wore, a different outlook for sure

but our world is enough for us all, no need for war

Thanks for reading.
Peace and Love.
Kyle.

A Mothers Love

Lets go to the cemetery

I want to sit and drink in the tranquillity

to think of a loss shared, these thoughts I grapple

the beauty the pain, seeing the memorial chapel

Its lovely to draw, I say to you

my unspoken companion, taking in the view

a physical charge, electricity flows, I feel alive

we arrive, perusing the gravestones, as we walk slowly by

In our unique thoughts, senses heightened

intense internal feelings,  we talk of lives, stories unripened

each one born to their mothers, took away too soon

an unspeakable pain, the mothers tears fill the room

These lifeless children, taken cruelly from this world

taken from this unique female form, now left broken and curled

The pain burns through every nerve ending

heartlessly taken, cruelly, trapped, in this spiral descending

No rest in the mind, a lifeless soul

left with a lasting pain, a deep gaping hole

The angels on the grave, the child asleep

a dream,  deep unbroken, forever we weep

Thanks for reading, Peace and Love
Words: Jan Martin & Kyle Coare

Bulletproof heart

Don't have a bulletproof heart
it has scars, bleeds when cut apart

hurts from past regrets
caused by people who only neglect

This heart has no shield, no armour
against arrows, fired by that archer
with cherubic looks, his arrows fly
they pierce my chest and cause to cry

This heart has bled waterfalls and rivers
cupids arrows never delivered, now kept in their quiver
my eyes have cried oceans, tears that flow freely
the arrows were never meant for me

This heart so filled with fear
can only ever hide when love appears
behind walls built to protect, to hide the feelings
to stop my heart from bleeding  

Thanks for reading.  Peace and Love.
Kyle.

Plenty of fish

Plenty of fish in the sea, they say
but my boat set sail, travelled far away
left alone, just me here, on this dry scorched land
as far from the ocean as I can stand

Plenty of fish in the sea, says thee
but this tide has taken them far from me
left alone, on this stone filled beach
the water still just out of reach

Plenty of fish in the sea, they wrote
but alas I'm no fisherman, not too good on a boat
so I watch from dry land, too far to get a bite
but that is safer than a heart, filled with fright

Plenty of fish in the sea, they say
the one I wanted swam south that day
travelled the oceans to lands, so distant
left here alone, my heart left wishing

Plenty of fish in the sea, they thrive
into the deep dark inky depths I dive
allow the currents to pull me, lead me to such beauty
here in this warm deep blue sea, so much more to see

Thanks for reading, peace and love.
Kyle.

One Kiss

Under this moonlit haze

I gaze, into your eyes, your soul on fire

one kiss is our true desire, to end the day flying higher

to float free within the clouds, the warmth of loves embrace

By the low light of this star filled sky

I feel the scars, deep in my heart, heal

one kiss, the real deal, allows us freedom, to begin to feel

to believe in the chance, of a love amplified

This faintly illuminated view

I see you, so perfect and true, your face a picture needing a frame

one kiss is all it takes, to show you feel the same

to fall free, deep into the arms of love, so long overdue

By the bright light of the morning sun

our day just begun, all hopes and dreams ours to chase

one kiss was all it took a taste of love, to find our space

the future, a place never to be outdone

Thanks for reading, peace and love.
Kyle.

Graveyard judges

Silently their lifeless eyes eat through me, watching over
these stony graveyard judges hold us in place, deep in their gaze
down these tree filled lanes, the narrow pathways, they study our souls
to see who is ready, to accept their fates and fill their graves

Bells ring out loud, a cloud of mist surrounds
this pathway so easy to lose, here all alone, which way to choose?
one wrong step and the end arrives, a six foot drop into the ground
as the judges focus their stares, is it me that is to lose?

An open grave, does this one have my name engraved?
the stone is fresh, and its drawing me in
feel it pulling, the darkness enticing
see a sight that starts my pulse racing, I can be saved

A delicate flower, full of life, a delight and so pretty a sight
growing strong amongst the death, decay and the weeds
A reminder to be strong and tall, proud as well, through darkness their comes light
if I lay down and accept this, the beauty will be missed, so instead I planted seeds

Thanks for reading, peace and love.
Kyle.

Cardboard city Spoken word

So this is something a little different, i have been out and about in the real world connecting with a lot of very talented spoken word poets, and am planning on doing some live performances in the future, so thought id have a semi test run type thing.... it is by no means finished, it is pretty much the first time i have ever spoke my words out loud so very rough, but it is a proof of concept!

Hope you enjoy.
Peace and love
Kyle.

Welcome to paradise

Welcome to paradise, land of the free
free from what, exactly?
hell on earth, a prison cell, in a new land
a welcoming party for the damned

Detaining children, a cage as a welcome
no shiny life, no happy times, just a cell as a hotel room
families split over fear of change, world superpower?
a country born of immigration yet all you do is cower

A stolen childhood sets a precedent, Mr president
when the world grows to distrust and resent
you breed what you fear
those children grow more hatred with every shed tear

Sat in cages, like animals in a zoo
do you feel proud of the flag, when this is what it leads to
is it a crime to want better, a life lived in peace
yet you turn up your nose, send in the police

Tears flow, a river wept at the border zone
children left in cells alone
lives torn apart, for wanting to be a part
seeing the children with broken hearts

Thanks for reading, peace and love.
Kyle

Panic attacks

My, my, my voice cracks, stutter as I try to speak
throat full a lump that wont go, swallow for air
is someone laying a wreathe? I've forgotten how to breathe
panic sweeps me off my feet, drops me out of reach somewhere

Room begins to spin, whirling it keeps turning
head feeling thin, like I'm just watching, outside looking in
light curses my senses, elevates the stresses
my body tightens and tenses, left to feel defenceless

Heart hits too many beats, or too few, cant remember
mind too flooded with thoughts of terror
chest pounds, a drill going through my ribs straight to the heart
this must be the end, or at least how it starts

Sweat drips as the temperature rises
feel compromised, like a criminal caught out on a lie
feel like the world is ending
is this how I die?

Panic as my knees go weak, feel the floor creak
tries to knock me down, force me to ground
it moves under me, like the crust is shifting to avoid my feet
to be trampled under the stumbling crowd

Can not sleep, see a kaleidoscope of judging eyes
every time I try to push them aside, new feelings are unleashed
like dogs out to hunt, I'm the prey they want, they feed, I'm the prize
tension builds to a peak, sleep, the only release, so far away from me

This wave of attack, an army on the march to hell and back
it hits you hard when you are feeling so low
but without knowing you break through it, just another panic attack
you start a new, a fresh day with challenges, joys and new chance to glow

Thanks for reading, peace and love.
Kyle

Love with anxiety

Do you believe in love at first sight?

I know I do, I knew it was true

the first moment I laid eyes on you

My heart skipped a beat

it jumped free, lept ten feet

high above the peaks, these feelings completely unique

In your voice I hear songs of love

a joyous sound, a ballad of hearts, sang aloud

can I sing back, to tell how my feelings abound?

I feel your eyes on me

the blood flows to my cheeks, I feel weak

your enticing me in, will you think me a freak?

Your hair, its curls enthral me

like a wave on a beach, emotions wash over, I forget how to speak

how to breath, now silent out of reach

Love was not a route on this map

was way off the beaten path, another town

a different land in a separate time

The path of love doesn't always flow smooth

its waters choppy, its currents pulling, gripping

as the doubts rise, my heart ripping

In love with anxiety? it is my partner in crime

it is there time after time

forever on my journey, a companion of mine

My ally in this life, anxious self doubt

so much is missed out, love not allowed

as I sit under this heavy storm cloud, head bowed

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.

Prisoner of the mind

Locked up behind

a door I cant find

a prisoner of the mind

confined in a world so unkind

These walls, a cage, a cell

the space I dwell

a window through which no light enters

just me here in this world, wonder if anyone remembers?

To leave, escape free, break out from the cold

why? what wonders does the outside hold?

So I sit, accept this, let it get deep

let it take control, a life lived asleep

Four walls through which I hear screams

or are they from within? tears start to stream

sense hate in every sound I hear

yet its just me here

solitude, alone, so quiet except the voices that confront you

the doubts that creep through

the shadows flicker past

this room needs to be escaped at last

these walls, once loomed so large, now feel two feet tall

thin as paper, no way to hold me at all

the window was never blocked out, just dirt and grime

so take a walk out into the world, one step at a time

the voices dull in time, they become prisoners of the mind

locked away, behind thoughts new fresh clean and true

the doubts creep away, no longer getting their say

as you take another step every single day

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.

setback

Cant find a way to express
this crushing feeling in my chest
heart filled with anger and sadness
a cold harsh blanket of anguish

The brief time we get, never enough to share
the thoughts deep inside, the long term fears
heart skips ahead, beating a rhythm of dread
as we mourn each passing day, wishing for a life well led

Sat here in this bed, head disturbed by thoughts heard
never want to leave, this place so warm and inviting, its preferred
my words flow as freely as my tears
my hands shake with fear, at the world outside of here

Things feel so jumbled, anxiety rises, I crumple
clam up and crumble
built a wall, a shell of sorts, a hell of course
into it I fell, completely off course

Suffered a set back, sat back watched as my world began to crack
but I wont let it hold me back, I will find a new attack
a pathway forward, a door towards, a future life
a human right

Thanks for reading,
Kyle.

Words

Words flutter by

like a butterfly, its wings singing a lullaby

in words, we can find peace

end wars, stop disease

in verse, we can set free

chained emotions released into beauty

in an uttered sentence, we can gain freedom

a place to let our thoughts grow, reborn

our phrases can show more than actions would

a longing gaze in word form, words can really love

an embrace with a loved one, can be written like a song

a deep moment shared between two who forever long, to belong

words can also bring pain

a twisted line, like a knife to a vein

words can erupt out, an anger so vicious

we can use to express doubt, or to show distrust

words have power, a magic unequalled, use them wisely

don't abuse them, they need nurturing kindly

set them free to show beauty

the way the world should be

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.

Cardboard city

In this cardboard city, the cold bitter nights get to me
the hate I fight daily, as if id choose this willingly
to live like a king isn't what I pray, just warmth, and peace
away from these maddening streets, the abusive feet

Down here I watch on, as you walk past
no care in your eyes, as they dart away fast
you talk aloud as if i don't speak your language
telling everyone that were just taking advantage

As the cold bites my toes, socks wet through
all I want is food, a room, a chance to make do
a job would be nice, to earn enough to find some peace
but not for the likes of me, when your address is "the streets"

Sat in a puddle of urine, its not my own, its obscene
a kid with a phone screen, pointing at me to make a scene
I've seen others bloodied, beaten just for life's shortfalls
we beg for help, a kind word, but no one hears our call

some fall to drugs, drink anything to escape, a release
to pass the day, to get away, to find some peace
a few bad turns and its you in this place, scraping to survive
just a chance is all we beg, to build a life and thrive

Thanks for reading,peace and love.

Kyle.

Own worst enemy

My own worst enemy
the person I try not to be
tells me I should quit, that ill never be free 

laughs when my voice cracks
pokes holes when anxiety attacks

my own worst enemy
the person deep inside I hear
tells me I'm unworthy, that I deserve my fear
puts me down when my confidence is growing

hates to see me glowing

my own worst enemy
insists that I'm not worth anything
that I cant be happy within
puts doubt in when things are good
puts the boot in when I'm low of mood

my own worst enemy
the voice in my mind
saying words, often so unkind
yet it pushes me on, to gain ground
to find my path, to be better all around

my own worst enemy
yet a part of me, when things seem ill of ease
can give comfort in times of need
gives praise when I need it most
my enemy, my friend, forever close

Thanks for reading, love you all.
Kyle.
Artwork  ©Dianne Coare

Shattered mirror

Shattered mirror, reflects a splintered past
an heart of glass, cracked and smashed
the shards slash, cutting deep slivers
memories smash, as I shiver

An image explodes into a thousand fragments
the story long forgotten, left fractured
body shredded and battered
mind in pieces scattered

The past destroyed in the blast
a jigsaw of pieces at best
the only memories left, a shattered glass on the desk
my last drink in this place, before the moment I crashed

Thanks for reading, love you all.

Kyle.

Crashing

All comes crashing

day brings pain, misery, two hearts clashing

took into your lair, this dark place of despair

believed your lies, believed you cared

Took all I had, my whole world

everything I owned, life unfurled

left just an empty hole where once I stood

a soul devoid of good, nothing left but bad blood

led me on this ride, a crash from day one

a collision course we could never out run

with your kiss you left a path of destruction

a kiss tinged with darkness and poison

baited me in with a promise

the life we both wanted, honest

ensnared in your trap, like a rat held captive

deep in this bitter twisted abyss

the penny dropped, as did the mood

your not who you claimed, you just abuse

led on a road of discovery

discovered I could only trust me

now I cry for those days in pity

not for me, but the person I never got to be

you moulded and shaped, tried to create a lover for you

turned out you created a twisted version of yourself, a distorted view

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.

Icy sun

I see the icy sun, it offers no relief
no heat, the subzero chill, as cold as your heart
the place love went to die, to depart
broke the bonds that bound us, stole the joy, a love thief

The chill wind bites, offers no pleasure
no warmth to treasure, this bitter cold, like your unloving soul
the place where our romance died, no longer whole
the connections between, now float into the aether

The bleak moon, the nights glacial sights
no passions left to ignite, no fire in the sky
our love a place happiness sat and cried
our joining became a parting, courtships last rites

The passing of time, cold as any snowfall
corrupts all the good thoughts, the special days
when love was more than just running away
so now its time to find some warmth in life's great hall

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.