new year 17-18

2017.

been quite a year....
so i thought id just write a few words about where i am, how i got here, why here even exists and just say farewell 2017 and hello to the next stop on this wonderful journey we call life.

As may be clear from my words, its quite easy to work out ive had some set backs over the years, and for the last ten years i had been living basically as a recluse, hidden away, too scared to get out of my house, other than to see doctors etc. this year i made a few breakthroughs, some quite big some small but each one was scary exillerating and have spurred me on to do more, each day a new part of the journey.

One of those steps was to start writing again, i last wrote about 5 years ago, i was drinking heavily t this point and without a lot of luck, love care and a sense of humour that would have killed me, it nearly did on two occasions, was in hospital for two months. anyway, long story short, i survived, i stopped drinking, i stopped writing. couldnt find any words, could not find any part of me anymore, felt like a shell..

2017, i got a feeling early this year that things would change, that id start to find me again. and so it began, slowly, pieces have started to fit into place, i have been doing more this last year than in the ten previously and i started to find the words were flowing better than in years.

I have a lot of people to thank for their help, i wouldnt be here without them, they stuck by me even when i would do my best to push them away,   those people most certainly know who they are, my family and my closest of friends.
this year has also introduced a few new faces into this storyline, some have been meerly brief interludes along the path, others i hope to be able to call close friends in years to come, but every single one has played their part in ways both big and small, so i wish you all a good time and a great future. heres to the next year, have a beer for me.


This year i have mostly been listening to 90's rock and indie music, still stuck in the past even as i try to move on in time.
Anyone that likes dark poetic lyrics etc should have a listen to Mark Lanegan, and read his excellent book, i am the wolf.

Anyway rambling over love from my heart to each person that gives a few minutes to look at my work and hope they get where it comes from.

2018 gonna be a hell of a year!