setback

Cant find a way to express
this crushing feeling in my chest
heart filled with anger and sadness
a cold harsh blanket of anguish

The brief time we get, never enough to share
the thoughts deep inside, the long term fears
heart skips ahead, beating a rhythm of dread
as we mourn each passing day, wishing for a life well led

Sat here in this bed, head disturbed by thoughts heard
never want to leave, this place so warm and inviting, its preferred
my words flow as freely as my tears
my hands shake with fear, at the world outside of here

Things feel so jumbled, anxiety rises, I crumple
clam up and crumble
built a wall, a shell of sorts, a hell of course
into it I fell, completely off course

Suffered a set back, sat back watched as my world began to crack
but I wont let it hold me back, I will find a new attack
a pathway forward, a door towards, a future life
a human right

Thanks for reading,
Kyle.