Friendship

Happiest alone, in my own world, its seas and cities, valleys and peaks
where people cant get in, make it grey and bleak
where I don't have to answer, as nobody calls
no pressure, just me and these four walls
So why do I need to fit in?

Feel most alive, in the dead of night, the ground at my feet, the city street
floating between the streetlights, as they illuminate the path for me
as the tides of darkness wash over, no judgement of who I am or where I've been
cool air caresses, hears my confessions, reinvigorating my sanity, I'm clean
so why do i need to join in?

Freeing to sit on the clouds of my mind
setting my thoughts free, letting my soul be refined
with no one around I can let my mind wander
travel far and wide, lands anew, beyond my view, sit and ponder
so why do I try to please?

A mass of contradiction, a lack of communication, so hurt and alone
but cant let anyone connect, not even by phone
need to find my place, the one I belong in
am always left longing
why am I sad when were all apart?

They want me there, struggle to connect
don't fit the purpose, cant let go, my shell deflects
my heart damaged so long ago, to be hurt again would knock me down
a loner at heart? or is that my defence? my way to avoid a breakdown
so why do I miss you so?

Happiest when we all connect, where my heart can shine
let go of the fears that clog up my mind
when we can unwind, a cold drink in hand, a talk with a friend
laugh and a joke, shared special days, cool streets we walk, the perfect end
That's what I needed to grow

Thanks for reading.
Kyle.