Rollercoaster

High, low, can barely hold on
mood flips so quick, so hyper, then sad, slow then so fast
Like a roller coaster ride, is this where I belong?
going downhill, feels like its about to crash

Hide away? I need to be seen, in a group? I want to go home
happiness flips to sadness then back in a beat
mind up and down, so much colour, now seems monochrome
the splinters of my mind carry on, thoughts on constant repeat

Crumble, crack fall to the floor
these feelings eat away inside
this ride makes me sick, what more is in store?
wish for an end, for the ride to stop, but I'm denied

Voices within wont let me be
they tell me I'm nothing, a waste
escape needed, break these confines, need a break from me
a day away, a week at sea, a clearing, empty where I cant be traced

A strong man with a tough heart
many times Ive let it get burnt, too many breakdowns
always rebuilt myself, created anew, from deep within, a start
just need to get this ride to stop or slow down

So I retreat into my safe space
this beach in my minds place
will return with love, warmth, my heart to give
that is the only way I know how to live.

Thanks for reading

Kyle