Seperation anxiety

 

Separation anxiety,

my lifeline and me.

How can I be human

if I’m not tethered to

the screen? How can I be free

if it’s not sat right beside me,

flashing its updates

into my mind constantly?

Holding my hand in a vice grip

in case I let it slip.

How can I exist

if my connection drops,

and I’m scrabbling in the dirt

just trying to find it?

 

Separation anxiety.

The phone and me.

Me and the phone.

Always in each other's pockets

Always alone.

I can ignore the buzzing...

Right?

Not on your life.

It’s like a fly sticking its feet over

every inch of your life.

Spewing up its vomit,

so you can chow down on it.

What if I promise

to soak in the blue light

when I get home from town

in the middle of the night?

 

Time piece, mirror,

diary, calculator.

Life reduced to mindless data.

Paperless notepad.

Dictionary traitor,

health just

a sea of numbers

in Wi-Fi vapour.

 

Separation anxiety.

Scrolling through doom

like a stroll by the sea,

obscenities mixed

with someone

else’s memories.

How do we know

that we really exist?

When our friends

are a mimic of reality

twisted through filtered

stories

highlighting only happy days

to the backdrop

of a cropped photograph

filtered through

Some artificial haze.

 

Separation anxiety.

My social battery

almost at an all-time low,

but the one on my phone

is even lower

and its starting to slow.

I am starting to lose my grip.

and it’s starting to show.

I need to split,

leave a message after the tone.

Beeeeeeep

 

 

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Songs of the lonely

 

I sing the songs of the lonely

as a tear falls heavily from my

watering can eye.

I’m crying in the anguish

of another agonised sigh.

Languishing in the only way I know how,

just singing a mournful song,

searching for my own peaceful sky.

 

And if I was to stop my song

what would become of me?

Would I be just an echo

floating along

over that endless sea?

 

I sing. My lungs bleeding

razor blade words straight

from my heart to the air that awaits.

Would they cut the tension

like a knife through butter?

Or just smear the plate with

wasted emotion

because I left it too late?

I mutter breathlessly

as the words start to

clutter my head endlessly.

 

And if I was to stop my song,

just cut the chords

and pull the mic from the amp,

Would silence dull

the sounds I hear inside,

the voice telling me to say hi?

Would the fear evaporate

and become just another

cloud in a different sky?

Or would it

cloud my eyes

causing more tears to cry?

 

 

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Through a dusty window

 

Trees line the way

as we sway past Tesco.

Lights blaring a beacon in the darkness,

as the streetlights

are turned off at half past never

and only seem to light up whenever

I think of you.

Past the boarded up working men's club,

a blend of cigarette burns, vomit stains

and the remains of countless regrets

sit trampled into the worn carpets.

The fencing says guarded 24 hours a day,

yet I’ve seen no-one passing this way

since the rot set in,

Only the youths laying out on the roof

a bottle of cheap cider

and a game of truth and dare

that no-one can win.

 

A man runs alongside,

breath clouds

rising from his upside-down grin,

trying to keep up,

to board at the next stop.

He does the same thing every night.

Passengers smile, Seeing the same sight,

the same cycle on repeat every time.

 

We slow beside the burnt down remnants

of the cannabis farm.

Just an ordinary house, 

until fire blazed

and the air became high from the fumes.

I let my mind drift away into my tunes, 

like clouds of smoky haze.

I’ve seen these sights almost every day.

I’m sifting through 

my brain photographs in a daze.

As all I seem to see is your face.

 

My attention returns to the streetside,

watching the shops glide by.

Charity shops on either side.

Takeaways drive the night economy

from bar to bar,

as Deliveroo drivers pay no attention,

taking their lives in their hands,

swerving between cars

to get to their destination.

I look to the place where

two hearts once kissed

under a sullen tree,

but there is no sign of love

just an aching in my belly.

 

We swing past the park

where love and sunshine

held hands only months previously,

but now winter is here,

the oily blackness is all I can see.

Split by a pathway of light,

but no-one walks side by side.

A sea of neon blinds as

through this bitter night

the railway station looms into view,

and I once again think of you

sat somewhere so far from here

where my dreams always fly away to

when the night glides through my mind 

from ear to ear.

 

 

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