I gave up on love
when my heart
was last shoved
under a bus,
when it last got beaten
harder than I could
ever beat myself.
Like an egg, I cracked.
Poured myself into the darkness
and tried not to look back.
I just wanted
to fade into shadows,
live in the fogginess
where the light would
never again touch
my lips.
I tried.
I swore I’d never let my heart
open its doors,
I swore to keep them locked
just to be sure.
I swore to the sky that I could
not let another pained cry
climb from my lungs and fall
to join me on my knees.
I swore I’d never open my eyes
and see the beauty
that stands above all.
I’d just stay in the shadows
waiting for winter to call.
I tried.
I withdrew my heart,
my last few pounds of hope.
I banked all the small deposits
That life had given me, the tears
I’d previously given away for free.
The love I'd watched fall into the red
so many times previously,
and I locked them in a vault.
Thinking I’d never again return.
I poured myself into words,
I took my time to unfurl meaning
from the moments
that once left me floundering,
and love sat locked away
where I swore it would stay.
I tried.
I tried so hard to withstand
the rushing feeling I felt in my head.
The flapping of butterflies
nested in my chest,
I tried to ignore the singing birds
and the lightness of their song,
I tried for so long
to ignore the blinding sun,
but it was so obvious to me
that the light
was with me all along.
So, join me,
as we watch the shadows dissolve
and take my hand to hold.
Let's see how love evolves
as we circle the sun
and the world revolves.
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Peace, Love & Poetry
Kyle
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