mood/doom

Mood flips into doom, a constant worry, as it shifts gears, builds, gains, an oppressive day,

mind slides as i grind down, an unexpected attack, a blank gloom, a grim hue almost grey,

off button pressed, feel depressed, i stress, pressure on my chest, lightness in my head, i sway,

goosebumps cover my skin, fear that lays within breaking free, to visit to stay,

panic inside, like ice, i shiver and shake, as if in an earthquake, no rest,

my heart skips beats, they collide and trip in their own time, anxiety, a test, beating at my chest,

sweat pours as the thoughts roar in my head a fire of doubt, creeping me out, i am distressed.

speak out, almost shout, silence is heard, no single word, killed my voice, no noise, cant express.

Cant leave, this is my curse, locked in my head with this voice, my voice, that says "I'm worse", 

it holds me tight in its embrace in place, my heart continues to pace,

anxiety my constant companion, my partner my lover,

my enemy, an adversary, my other.

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this is a tad disjointed and certainly needs work, but it feels like a panic attack does, all over the place and disorientated.
so thanks for reading.
kyle (the nervous wreck of a poet)