Cracked smiles

This mask of cracked smiles and weather worn miles
a disguise to stop prying eyes, from seeing my life's trials
etched on my face, a distant look into space
like a rabbit in the headlights, I feel out of place

See you looking deep, like you are looking through a turbulent sea
under the waves I'm barely breathing, only screaming, don't look at me
I feel ugly, cant shake the feeling that washes over 

just want to swim, dive deep for cover

I feel like a misfit, a freak, not so much unique more a whole new breed 

feel your eyes piercing my skin until I bleed
want to wash away the stains of old days and all the pain
want to dance in cleansing rain, watch as the self hate pours down the drain

There are days when the sun shines through

the clouds break clear and I smile anew

when I forget the worry, the stress and fear

and I remember that there is so much to cheer

Thanks for reading

Peace & Love.

Kyle.