Panicked eyes

Alarm bells calling

elsewhere the silence of night is falling

in my head the lights are blaring, glaring

sounds ringing

the engines are whirring and turning

I'm despairing at the rush of emotion so overbearing

Blood rushes through the veins under skin

a train through the tunnels of the underground system

my brow becomes tight, I can feel my insides going haywire

Like somewhere the computers have caught fire

A wash of lights blinking

all red, alarms in my head, the ship is sinking

I can’t get a grasp of thoughts, I'm overthinking

Panicked eyes sigh in tired cries

as the internal voice monologue tells lies

trying to make me jump ship, bail out and swim for it

Palpations, shortness of breath. My mind so unkind in moments like this

Addled brain thinks of hurt, death and pain

I can’t relax, not yet

my body won’t give me a break

I’m all shakes and sweat

losing track of my senses

waves lapping at the tidal defences

and they are starting to creak

my mind begins to freak

I can feel it all speed up

the world starts to rush

like a movie being run through on fast forward

turning through all the memories stored

trains now going double speed

the storm surges against the barriers

and it all starts to crumble into dust

I can feel it crack

the barriers under attack

the waves no longer lap they crash with force

can the walls withstand? Or should I reinforce

call for help to build new sea defences?

or just see if I can mend this

I'm sinking

but the life rafts are there, the safety jacket I wear

may save me from the whirlpool that is slowly shrinking

I take a step back

try to slow the trains on the track

I breathe slowly to relieve

to help me believe that it is just a

set of misfiring systems alarming me

The blinking lights are now dulling

no longer a series of blinding lights

now a tired green light flashing slowly

it says press here, everything will be alright

reboot for the night

and all will feel better in the morning light

Thanks For Reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.