The thrum of voices
becomes
a solitary sound
as they flow into one another,
and smother my mind.
Headphones pulled on
to drown the hum.
With song I know
I can carry on.
Waves lap at the edges of my vision.
I imagine beaches
peaceful, soothing seas. serenity
to replace the grinding ache I feel
with the crowd pulling my tides.
Restless feet jerk
uncontrollably.
Uncomfortable in the shoes I'm wearing,
the skin I'm wearing, the name tag itching
Fingers twitching
erratically... A drumbeat... A heartbeat...
A rising crescendo of panic.
Frantically breathing...
Out...
Out... Out...
Can't work it out.
Forgetting the rhythm
as the panic settles in.
It feels like
the gulls are circling
and I am the feast
they are watching.
Heart flutters
like the wings
beating ferociously.
The water is
getting higher now
It’s up to my thighs.
Eyes rolling back
and forward.
Tense jaw
Locked tight,
for if the key gets twisted then
all of the screams would fall out.
I stay stuck still.
Can't run or eyes will follow.
So, I duck into words
on my phone screen. A bitter pill,
or a way to negate the dull ache...
the heartbreak... the moments of self-hate
that seem so hard to navigate
Without a pen in hand.
The sound of song now ending.
I swipe onto another
and sink even further
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Peace, Love & Poetry
Kyle
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