Snapshot

Cant feel, emotions ran dry
tears wont fall, though I need to cry
a snapshot, the clocks all stopped,
Polaroid picture scene, of a time I forgot

Photograph album, filled with scraps
memories that I cant attach, so many gaps
days lost to time, tattered picture in a frame
was that taken in a dream? nothing feels the same

Lifeless empty house, lost moments I cant find
just the haunting grey loneliness, that sits upon my mind
beg to feel again, find a way through
plead to ache, to smile, to laugh, anything will do

Mind a scattered jigsaw of broken fragments
just a well of emotions run stagnant
no way to piece it all together
when my head is filled with bad weather

A song plays on the radio, stirring my senses
lets me look back at the past, through all new lenses
that melody remains, reminds me of good days
A smile, emotion at last, as I walk out of this haze

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Time

The pendulum swings, as the heart no longer sings

just passes lonely hours, and the pain they bring

the ticking never stops, even if I remove the clocks

the look on my face, shows that the chimes have struck

As sand grains trickle, oh time so fickle

with each passing day I feel a little more brittle

as the arrow of time flies past, so fast

all the memories have breathed their last

The hands of the clock keep turning, left yearning

for those days when the fire was still burning

As a child it all seemed so long, how wrong

now left wondering where the day has gone

Has the moment passed? are we living in the past?

when we have time to live, a future so vast

so we carry on, with a new day, a new song

and enjoy the fruits of our time, however long

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle,

Dead leaves

Dead leaves, rotting down

rejoining the ground, my fear painted frown

as I collect my mind, in this season of hurt

from the autumnal decay, like these piles of dirt

Bare trees, hide no sins

naked branches just like torn skin

after too many drinks the knife cuts in

and the sap pours, red again

Cold skies, like my heart lies

emotionless, in its darkest guise

dulled to the pain, from a constant barrage

now just a husk, a shell to discard

Wet ground, from when the tears laid waste

left stains, pain ingrained on my face

now can no longer cry, the well has been emptied

the tears have run dry

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Yesterdays

The hardest part, the weakest heart

losing you left the whole ripped apart

never to share those moments we could have treasured

I saw you only yesterday, how can pain be measured

Stolen, all the memories we will never create

all those last minute dinner dates

all the yesterdays that will never be

no more tomorrows lived carefree

So many unfinished verses, words written for you

songs and poems that you will never hear, the world blue

As yesterdays become the past, the future comes into view

a place left missing a spark so true

So much left unaired, unspoken, never said

yesterday left too soon, just an empty room filled with dread

those unwritten words, will live on forever

floating through the air, inbetween the clouds in every weather

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Rock n Roll

You carry on the destructive cycle

it shows the fakeness when you smile

you only walk towards the grave

your choice, to be the change you crave

Hide behind those lies you tell

the rock n roll lifestyle, really a living hell

people drop in the blink of an eye

the tears formed start to dry

No one can escape for you

no magic wand in view

just a struggle to find yourself

before you end up on the shelf

When the party is over, the music ends

the room clears, those burnt out weekends

left to sit alone, was it worth the cost

all the things you've lost

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Without you

Took yourself away from the world

what is left is not worth the words

when all that remains is me in this void

a solo cloud in a sunless sky, hope destroyed

Removed yourself from my pages

the book has lost focus it just ages

a lone tale of a man

with no place to call home, a wasted lifespan

Deleted yourself from the song

just left an instrumental piece, goes too long

without you, no words to share, no voice to sing

just a tune with no heart, spark or spring

Erased from the photograph

just shows a world torn in half

no smiles, no joy just a landscape

grey and bleak, no shape

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

deep river

This river deep, if I dive in where will the current take me
will it drop me at your feet, where my soul is free
or to a land far away, adrift in unknown parts
where some life could touch my heart

These waters carry, through turbulent tides and stormy seas
where the darkest thoughts flow over me
to a place where comfort sits, with sun kissed crests
high atop the hill I climbed, to learn to live my best

But it is lonely true, with only me not you
two seats but one stands empty just observing the view
maybe in time you will join, or another will meet
to sit atop this peak and take the second seat

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Crawling

Crawling through the rubble of so many broken plans

blood soaked from the cuts on my hands

twisted, torn, forlorn, the sharp stings

like knives cutting skin

Drifting through the debris of a broken mind

lost pieces of memories left long behind

as I tear strips off my feet on scraps of days

shredded bleeding as the fear sits and stays

Scorched remnants of a burnt out past

where we lived hard, played fast

fires still smoulder under the dusty ashes

burn the skin, tear filled eyes, mind flashes

A clearing, a resting place

to lay down and recover in this space

revive my health, build my resolve

to heal my cuts, break out of my shell and evolve

The lands once fearsome and full of frights

now just filled with beauty, bright lights

as I learn to walk, run, jump and soar

I rush onwards wanting to see more

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Demon Angel

A demon in an angels dress
I fell, as she whispered her address
she stole my heart
took my soul, tore it apart

This devil in disguise
anyone would fall for the lies
she was a wonderous sight
as beautiful as the night

With her wings of white
her halo never sat quite right
maybe it was the devil horns
they should have forewarned

The kiss heavenly, I felt like hell inside
lies told, the nights we stole, took on a ride
thought she was an angel in my head
but here she lay a demon instead

Her facade held tight
a shimmering sight, a delight for the nights eyes
but her forked tongue gave her away
with the evil things she did say

Thanks for reading.

Peace and Love.

Kyle.

Resentment

Life stolen, all I had left, resentment

all I had built crashed in an instant

left feeling distant, mind lost in the distance

as nights turn dull and days felt less innocent

The feelings of hate turned me sour and mean

couldn't crack a smile. the tears never washed clean

the stains in my heart forever to stay

never to be set free, reliving that day

A crush of pain, years in limbo

never knew that not knowing could break you so

lost myself, my health, any belief in me

just left a broken wreck at the bottom of the sea

A lifeline at the right time saved my fragile mind

gave me a chance to beat the decline, a long climb

something that will take a lifetime, but a chance to smile

for all the hours walked and all the lonely miles

Each day a step in the right direction

still alive to learn new lessons

to rebuild, to regain, to trust and love again

to make whole and fight past the pain

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love

Kyle.

Landfill

Another day atop this scrapheap
too many layers deep, I weep
trash pile collapses, an avalanche
the detritus of another failed romance

Disposed of, rejected with the rest
a throw away lover, heart unexpressed
in landfill for not being shiny and new
the scattered refuse of love untrue

Binned as you got bored
needed a new toy, best you can afford
sent to the tip, dumped in this dark hole
debris of years of tears, hearts, flowers, my soul

Seen as junk, garbage no longer wanted, discarded
unbroken, needs repair, cleaning, not disregarded
trash can be treasured, can be recycled, reused
this heart not forever damaged, just bruised

Thanks for reading,

Peace and Love.

Kyle.

Leaving hope

Sat in the station
the bus set to depart
is this our final goodbye
or a brand new start

Sat in the window seat
see the life rushing past
feel my heart beat
pumping so fast

Sat thinking of those days
walked streets with you
now I walk away
cant help but feel blue

Sat remembering the love
this place felt like hope, at home
the place fit me like a glove
world feels monochrome

Sat head in pieces
recalling the days, the dinners, the talks
the hours sat on beaches
the nights, the fights, love, hate, the long walks

As the bus pulls out
ponder the future, so much doubt
is this all a new start
or a lost heart

Thanks for reading,

Peace and Love.

Kyle.

Walk Away

Will you walk away

are you leaving to keep the peace

to ease your mind, stay?

could we speak at least

You take off, I'm left in a daze

would it be better if i was there or here instead

living in dread fearing the days

far away from that bed, far from your head

Would you be better with them

playing games with your heart

or are they real men

not like this shell, torn apart

Are you running away or forwards

to a better life filled with joys

all of life's grand rewards

or are you going to be just a toy for the boys

Always you walk away

I'm left here with more memories of our story

the pain lessens each day

happy it can never be more than history

Thanks for reading.

Peace and Love.

Kyle.

Shattered mirror

Shattered mirror, reflects a splintered past
an heart of glass, cracked and smashed
the shards slash, cutting deep slivers
memories smash, as I shiver

An image explodes into a thousand fragments
the story long forgotten, left fractured
body shredded and battered
mind in pieces scattered

The past destroyed in the blast
a jigsaw of pieces at best
the only memories left, a shattered glass on the desk
my last drink in this place, before the moment I crashed

Thanks for reading, love you all.

Kyle.

Crashing

All comes crashing

day brings pain, misery, two hearts clashing

took into your lair, this dark place of despair

believed your lies, believed you cared

Took all I had, my whole world

everything I owned, life unfurled

left just an empty hole where once I stood

a soul devoid of good, nothing left but bad blood

led me on this ride, a crash from day one

a collision course we could never out run

with your kiss you left a path of destruction

a kiss tinged with darkness and poison

baited me in with a promise

the life we both wanted, honest

ensnared in your trap, like a rat held captive

deep in this bitter twisted abyss

the penny dropped, as did the mood

your not who you claimed, you just abuse

led on a road of discovery

discovered I could only trust me

now I cry for those days in pity

not for me, but the person I never got to be

you moulded and shaped, tried to create a lover for you

turned out you created a twisted version of yourself, a distorted view

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.

Icy sun

I see the icy sun, it offers no relief
no heat, the subzero chill, as cold as your heart
the place love went to die, to depart
broke the bonds that bound us, stole the joy, a love thief

The chill wind bites, offers no pleasure
no warmth to treasure, this bitter cold, like your unloving soul
the place where our romance died, no longer whole
the connections between, now float into the aether

The bleak moon, the nights glacial sights
no passions left to ignite, no fire in the sky
our love a place happiness sat and cried
our joining became a parting, courtships last rites

The passing of time, cold as any snowfall
corrupts all the good thoughts, the special days
when love was more than just running away
so now its time to find some warmth in life's great hall

Thanks for reading, peace and love.

Kyle.

Screen romance

The story over long before the credits roll

the curtain was halfway down before we stood a chance

never got to see the budding romance

before the final act has even started to unfold

Our tale, a brief interlude from a bigger movie

could never flourish, would never grow

the script left unfinished just never flowed

only ever saw the beast, never got to see the beauty

No beginning or middle, all led to it ending

story held no structure, no one at the controls

the plot was in pieces, so full of holes

the direction was wrong from day one, needed amending

No one knew the lines, improvised all their scenes

the storyboards were flawed, the cast was too young

they didn't connect or share any bond

This tale was never meant for the screens

Was this comedy or tragedy?

seemed more like an horror story

a straight to TV release, a production so flawed

the faults could never be ignored

Even the worst movies have moments where the true love does shine

the screen kiss was real, the stars had their time

the story was bad, 2 stars at best, would never hit primetime

but it had lessons to teach, its heart was just fine

Thanks for reading.

Kyle.

Senses

Used to smell your sweet scent, everywhere I went
followed me throughout, day and night, thought it heaven sent
 heart would skip a beat, as I think of you and me
a treat, delight, shared cool nights, carefree, under that moonlit tree

From the corner of my eye, I spy, your long red dress
worn by a different guise, phantom of my mind, forever a mess
see it flow into view, like a river flowing through

realise my sense is off, my vision is untrue

Feel the light touch on my chest
as I lay awake, heart races, feeling blessed

remember i am alone, this room, a land of dreams, forgotten
the touch, just a pang of pain, a twinge, a strain, throat has a knot in

Sleep washes over me
like waves across the sea
hear your soft voice, calling forth, a message of our love, combined
I rejoice, until I recognise that it is all within my mind

Used to dream that you would return
sat in your old chair, every time I turn

hoped beyond belief, you would take your place, next to me
Now that seat is worn, the dreams faded, long gone, they flee

Cant trust my senses to guide
they create, distort, real truths they hide
my memories don't relate
the story, missing fragments, sits out of date

The truth that did pass, the lies, the stabs to the back
the jabs to the heart, the constant hurt, the forgotten attack
your cheating days, an affront to the real me

they leave me questioning my sanity

Thanks for reading,

Kyle.

Artwork  © Rebecca Costello.

Distant star

The lone star, a distant sun, collapses in
consumes me, goes dark, as my heart did back then
we don't witness it go from view, so far away
just a feeling that is shared kept forever at bay

Even our telescopes don't pick up its demise
all those light years away, like thoughts of you, lost promise
the sad decay, an end of days, the last few rays
what was once a bright spark, my heart, fell away

The death of that light
like my memories of that last night
a shine gone dull
love lost its pull

The stars core cools, no longer burns true
as my feelings are no longer about you
a cold lonely part of the sky
no longer part of my life

Thanks for reading.
Kyle.

Stages

Don't go, stay, everyone goes away

was it something I said

did I not make you happy, was it a lie

a deceit to hide your other guy

If you have to go then leave

never come here again please

I cant be here begging on my knees

hoping for some reprise

Tried to be nice, the perfect guy

to make your life so fine, gave you all I could find

wrote songs of love, did all I could

never enough you wanted blood

So if you must go then go

lets not make a show

just walk away, no need to fight

just never call me late at night

If you need release, its the least I can offer

we are through, this love could never prosper

as if a weight lifted

the pain shifted

No longer miss your calls at night

realise you were never right

a selfish hateful catch, glad I threw you back

more to life than being under constant attack

So farewell my old flame

it was fun for a while, a shame

I hope we never meet again on these dark streets

this is a story I don't want to repeat

Thanks for reading.
Kyle.