Condemned

Am I condemned to live with this loneliness
or is there an escape from this pit of worthlessness
I find it hard to scrape by, when the walls are so high
the barriers built to survive, I can't pull them down or leap over and fly

Only want to feel... Something, anything, not this empty feeling
where once was a heart beating, now just a shadowy hole left freezing
I smile, I Laugh, but its not enough
where inside my tears well up, my outside shows an act; all just a bluff

Yes, I'm strong, I have had to be when the grass has grown long
and I'm lost in the field, my mind planted to heal; emotion long gone
no longer the man I was when I was young
so many snakes in the grass, weeds trying to grasp; I'm just trying to get along

Am I condemned to live this lonely existence, just me in residence
an empty cell I built with words spilled; so venomous
Or is there an escape?  A light at the end of this passage so bleak
a true smile to break this shell, a love to make this heart less weak

Thanks For Reading,
Peace & Love.
Kyle.