Fatigue

 

I see no ray of light, no stunning insights

bringing me hope or delight

In this cold void of a night

I feel my desire to live get up and leave

my feet slipping, as I try to reach out

only grasping hold of doubt

I'm falling deep

I feel fatigue creep

over me

like fog over sea

 

I see no end in sight to this pain in my heart

to the noise that abounds through my head in the dark

I feel no smiling eyes or masks behind which I can hide

I'm just here standing naked and blind

bound gagged

with no words to be found

I ache from just being awake

my brain shakes from just thinking

I’m slipping, Sinking

whole world feels like its shrinking

 

I feel I'm drained

the strain of faking a smile

feels like a marathon

and I've sprinted every mile

I feel like I lifted my defences

then inside you placed a bomb

my safe house invaded

my panic room left wide open

like a nuclear fallout bunker

with sign attached reading out of order

 

I try to sleep

but the flooding thoughts seep

over me

I sink into a deep well of introspection

reflection

feel a sense of impending doom

like I've just entered a crowded room

and instead of smiles and glee

all eyes are staring, pointing daggers at me

I want to flee, close my eyes,

feel loving arms surrounding, like the roots of a tree

 

 

Thanks For Reading,

Peace & Love.

Kyle.