Sol

 

I wear a blank stare

and a smile

like my system is lagging

and my thoughts aren't computing,

the files all corrupted

and it just isn’t booting.

I’ve turned it on and off

Sso many times, the switch is stuck,

and now it just reboots at its own

inopportune moments.

 

I look off into the distance

because that’s where I left my gaze,

somewhere away in a moment

when I was able to regain

my composure before it flowed

down the drain.

But behind the eyes

I’m a whirlwind swirling,

all the thoughts circling

and forming into

their own spaces

for me to run through

like a field of maize.

 

I’m complex, like a sound desk

with all of the switches and dials

mixed up wrong,

so what if I ruin the song?

It was my song to ruin all along.

But then I let that special refrain

sing over my brain and I remember

that what I am isn’t wrong, I am me

and I belong. All along my gaze still sits

somewhere off in the mix,

in the field of sound

where the song really exists.

 

But I am love. It is me

and we are one in this world

where hearts bound along.

So I’ll dress my hope

in golden robes

and I’ll share her with the sun

and watch as she outshines

the light that Sol

pours down on everyone.

For I am love

and I hold my arms open

when most close them tight,

and I’ll give you the key.

just use it wisely

and set your own love free tonight.