Unwanted guest

Stress test, a tight chest

breathing too fast, this unwanted guest

frustration rises, losing control

falling down this bottomless hole

Words painted behind closed eyes

thoughts pour, a constant roar, mind paralysed

hands shake, body quakes, deep down I ache

muscles tense, nothing makes sense, how much can I take?

Lost focus, brain races, heart paces

missing motivation, I cant face this

Forgotten days, lost track of nights

worry, the only feeling that fits right

Teeth grind, dry mouth, I'm crying out

tears spill, this pain inside, screams and shouts

Will it end, this stormy day? the oncoming train

the flood in my brain, the pouring rain

Anxiety, a drain on my mental stability

when everything feels beyond my ability

loneliness hurts, yet talking is too much

fear holds my hand, with its delicate touch

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love

Kyle.

No exit

Cant leave, even though my head screams

stuck in this everlasting nightmare, it seems

like groundhog day, a constant replay

a feeling I cant gouge away

Stuck in this maze, endless corridors of pain

no way out, memories trickle in, like rain

searching for an exit, the door no longer open

just a long path, running in slow motion

Like a runaway train, on a circular track

cant get off, cant stop the flashbacks

the same view, on a continual cycle

falling into a downward spiral

A change of view, something new

a break from the ceaseless review

wake from the dreams, escape from the maze

stop the moving engine, enjoy the days

Remove yourself from the conflict

no need to feel you have slipped

find the positive spin, keep negativity apart

let the new day begin, with a fresh start

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Same faces, Strange Places

The same faces, in all the strange places

every corner a mirror of the last

no where to run, no empty spaces

a world I don't fit in. forever an outcast

There wherever you turn, the smirks pursue

every room a blast from the past

where there is no window to escape through

away from this crowd, the frowns amassed

At every door, another face from before

sneering as I push my way forward

everywhere I turn, no matter how far I explore

those eyes stare back, feel so cornered

Led through this maze to find release

but those paths just lead me to more

the same faces surround, give me no peace

always blocking the exit door

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Breakthrough

Keep on coming back for more
what does this say about me?
why cant I show you the door
and just let it be

I return at your beck and call
am I really this weak
come running when you fall
need to stop being so meek

I rush to your side
even as you walk on past
your eyes tell the truth inside
should say goodbye at last

You push everyone away, yet you ask us to stay
what sort of game are you trying to play
well it ends with this, a breakthrough
as I walk away from you

Thanks For Reading,

Peace & Love.

Kyle

Karma

Karma hits like a cannonball

you walked that path, now its your downfall

All the times you pushed away

now they shove back, keep you at bay

All the tears you made them cry

now yours flow like a stream, under a desert sky

a well that is starting to run dry

until there is just dust in your eye

All the names you shouted loud

all the hateful words, did they make you proud?

now all you have are curses on you

the hell you gave, you now live through

All the punches you gave

now rain down on you, do you still feel brave?

the bruises heal but the pain remains

keep you locked in like you're shackled in chains

All the hurt you bestowed

all the times the blood flowed

the lies that you told

yours to live ten fold

But I don't wish this to be

just live life without being mean

give the love that is there

and show the world that you care

Thanks for reading.

Peace & love

Kyle.

Claustrophobic heart

Claustrophobia claws away, crawling over the skin

in this city, everyone knows where you are, where you've been

want to jump on a bus, a train, a plane

somewhere nobody knows my name

Always is drama, when your in with a clique

where are all the people unique

where you can just sing at the top of your lungs

and no one blinks or runs

Freedom to be who you are, not the image portrayed

the one deep within, trying to break free, unrestrained

can never really be, who you feel, whats the deal

when you cant find the person that's left, the one that's real

Stop yourself from saying thoughts aloud

could get you banished from the crowd

so you bite your tongue

even if you know it is wrong

Left longing for a life that cant be

when the claustrophobic clouds blow over me

but then I remember the goodness

the things that keep me honest

The beautiful people that share our time

the stunning sunsets as we dine

the conversations that stick

the nights out with friends who click

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Statue

Blind terror, like a rabbit in the headlights
the feeling when the brain takes flight
the body left like a statue, confused, a stone relic
so alone, feels pathetic

The silence, is it uncomfortable?
or is it like a hug, embraces the mind, such a jumble
standing here like I'm caught in a trap, as time flies past
lost in the bright flash like a bomb blast

Dream state washes over like a freak wave, a frozen gaze
glazed expression on my face, like I'm lost in a maze
cant move to run, want to stay
find my feet a little more each day

Thanks for reading.
Peace & Love.
Kyle.

Trials

Always another answer
these trials, troubled times, tempting trances
grey gradients gradually give glances
below, beyond boundaries, beneath borders
colour creates, constantly cleanses corners
where wondering words work, wisely written worlds

Deep dark designs drift delightfully down, driven
forwards, forever, for fate flies free, forgiven
pen pushes purposely, paper painted poetically
life lived, loved, left longing, lonely
emotions elevated, entangled entwined
brightness builds brilliant, become blind

Defences dragged down, daylight dazzles
towards totality, tonally twisted, trampled
hurries, harries, homeward, herein
where whatever we want we will win
fast forward, flashes, free, fearless, flawless
peace, perfection, pure prevailing promise

Thanks for reading.
Peace & Love.
Kyle.

Four letter word

Somehow you got in
an intruder breaking into my dreams
you got under my skin
ripped my heart from the seams

Never should have opened that door
you're like a vampire I invited in
now I cant escape, like a prisoner of war
a battle I cant win

A four letter word, love, the worst of all scrapes
it shreds you of your senses, leaves you defenceless
like a fish caught on a hook no escape
leaves you feeling helpless

Yet I know that if you call
ill answer the phone, seal my fate
take another fall
into this world of hate

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Skin

Wish the mirror would smash, detest the image staring back

face looks at me, reads my deepest thoughts, gives feedback
the hateful stare, its cold cynical glare
its like a beast in my nightmares

I cant stand a camera, hide from the ordeal
the likeness, I don't like it, makes it seem real
this skin I feel, this body I resent, doesn't represent
doesn't give me much hope, images just torment

This body I carry, doesn't seem to fit, people laugh and make fun

cant shake the feeling that somehow I got the wrong one
that someone was having a laugh when they made me
the bits all seem out of shape, every inch feels beastly

I know looks are only skin deep
that beauty is in the eye of the beholder
but in this world of tinder and speed dating
outer skin is all that's seen, not the person within, waiting

And this skin doesn't fit
it stretches too thin
some bits are too fat, my face is a mask
the smile I cant grasp, so I stand at the back

My clothes don't work, don't understand fashion
certainly not dashing
but still find time to give, to love and respect
always be all I can so please don't neglect

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Mental Blocks

A mental block, brain locked, thoughts shot dead

words stuck in the furthest reaches of my head

cant connect the dots, to let my imagination soar

or find an emotion to start this downpour

Want to close up, stay in bed, let the dreams fly

to inspire, to find a thread to pick, to kiss today goodbye

but then my mood will float like a stone

and my words will have the wrong tone

The flow feels wrong, the feelings I cant shout about

creative spark fizzled out, just left here filled with doubt

all the stories have dried up, in lockup

think maybe my brain is fried up

What if that is it, if there are no more words to write?

have I written all I have, are the words finite?

or is this just a bad day, with little to say

and will I wake with a sea of reflection to convey?

Thanks for reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.

Geek

You call me a geek, like its a bad thing
I think unique has a better ring
I see the world with a distinctive view
my glasses show a different hue

You say I'm a freak, as if I'm not human too
you think me meek, but i am stronger than you
I have fought against so much pain
you would crumble under the strain

You tell me I'm pathetic, well Ive got more to show

don't fit your aesthetic, have more heart than you will ever know

found my world, my place, my own way
you just got angry, bitter and grey

You call me names, like I'm going to break
you play your games, as if they cause me heartache
but I have life, a joyous, happy time
no matter what you say I'm living in my prime

Thanks for reading.
Kyle.

Self destruct

The self destruction begins
push people away, close off and hide today
cant let anyone see me this way
as I pay off all of my sins

The countdown ticks, clock close to zero
feeling anxious, panic hypnotises
brain just blankness, as the tension rises
I cry out for a hero

Charcoal darkness falls, light gone
vision taken, no way out
this time I'm really going down, try to shout
the countdown strikes one

Only seconds remain, fly by so fast
need to save myself, no one else I can ask
to escape this fate, brain takes over the task
as the final seconds tick past

Ten. Nine. Eight. a thought, a possible escape chosen
Seven. Six. Five. just one chance must rush to survive
Four. Three. Two. just one last push, I strive
One. through the door, jump take cover, before the explosion

Mind clear, set free, can now begin to cope
the flight to escape, my fight to win
the countdown, a part of my brain, within
my panic subsided, anxiety tamed, for now I walk with hope

Thanks for reading.
Kyle.

pain flows red

You hit me hard, face splits, blood spills, I'm down,
the blows rain on, as the flow continues red from my crown,
take the beating, better to feel pain than the numbness within
feelings swell like the wounds on my face, gaining a thick skin,

When I was young, never could fight back,
now I don't want to, welcome the attack,
the pain sets free to feel alive in this moment,
the ache signals my brain there life in this man, damaged not broken

Tried to shout, but the words were stuck,
couldn't find a way to release,
inside trying to escape like a caged beast,
a roar to unleash, to let go, to be set free

So low too low,just want the numbness to go,
to let me scream, let me roar, let me find my voice once more,
to let go of the pain held inside, to find the joy I've been denied,
the confidence i once held, the things that have been withheld

thanks for reading,
kyle