I tried to
piss away
my dreams,
as too many
nightmares
kept coming
true.
I thought
oblivion
was all
I could do.
Hurt was all
I knew,
but that
too became
a nightmare,
one that I almost
didn't wake up through.
I sank into my own depths.
Sleeping deep in a place
where the walls bled,
and my days were singed
within the fires of neglect.
I slept on floors
of places I never knew.
Rooms I’d never been,
surrounded by faces
I’d never seen.
Stumbled through doors
I wasn’t supposed to open
as they were
not the path for me.
My final destination,
a wept moment of frailty.
I tried to piss away my time.
Watching those clock hands
blur by, through slurred ticks
I heard my own voice
mimicking my own pitiful croak.
I wore a cloak of invisibility
but forgot
the cape of invincibility.
I fell to my knees
retching up
my last remaining hopes
and watching them
flow down drains of despair.
I was a nobody.
I had nothing.
Just a shadow
in the halls of nowhere.
This isn’t a plea for pity.
I played the role wilfully.
I let myself fall because
I couldn't see the highs,
I kept to the dark
as I was
too scared of those
who bring light.
I don’t believe in regret.
The past was a part of me
that created something
so much stronger.
So now when I look
in the mirror I no longer
see the person
that played with fire.
Now I see only a survivor.
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Peace, Love & Poetry
Kyle
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