Sleepwrecked

I’m Sleepwrecked. The thoughts nest

trapped on an island of nightmare scares

and I am down

mind in protest at this face I detest

those same stabbing pains

little niggling stings

they start as pin pricks

before taking over the skin

Shaking from the panic

when did it start?

why does it feel like my heart has fallen apart?

I can’t get the thoughts to collect

they are floating into the air

waving as they depart

Emotionally drained

I strain to keep my thoughts contained

I let them fall out

a trickle then later a shout

I scrawl them on a page

rage, anger, lack of courage

to push for the love that I desire

my place in this town a

burnt out funeral pyre

Feel worthless, discarded thoughts return

bubbling to the surface

my mind tells me time after time

that happiness is not to be found

that I'm not to be allowed

I can’t dull the roars that howl

Mind on overdrive

like a motorway heading south

I can’t work my mouth.

I have so much self-doubt

I've run out of gas; I've got a flat

my battery has burnt out after so long idly sat

and it’s been a long lonely walk

in the haunting darkness

Again

Feel sick in the stomach

this feeling takes me over

panic makes me twitch

hear my heartbeat skip

like an old record destined to repeat

the same lines over and over

I can’t sleep

Feeling lightheaded

fluffy thoughts turned leaden

now they press down

on my chest, my head, my heart

I feel them weighing me down

Brain dancing through limbo

left searching for answers in a world of questions

It pays my hurt no attention

just keeps digging

pointing out my flaws

broken walls are spinning

I feel it all spiralling down

spinning in a void

a whirlpool twisting around

draining away

I can’t explain

the sounds inside are so loud

Like thunder crying out

against midnight's silent shroud

Cascading shades of doubt

black out the light

In grades of grayscale gloom

feels like endless night is creeping about

I'm blinded by the darkness surrounding

shrouded eyes see no path worth pounding

Drained, my sprained brain

feels like a mixture of hurt, deception and pain

I can’t let go again

get soaked by that pouring pounding rain

feel like it's all crumbling around me

an avalanche of sound

as the buildings are falling down

my head aches from the pressure wave

the tremors and shakes

the sleep I crave

Thanks For Reading.

Peace & Love.

Kyle.