war/torn

 

To die in war, a glory? or a waste of a story?

to die for our leaders and their power dealers?

to fight an enemy that is just like me?

doesn't sound like a victorious battle, sounds like we are used like cattle.

is it a just war? what are we fighting for?

oil and profit, hitting our targets, clearing out nations,

just for our own aspirations,

to fill the coffers, to make men wealthier,

id rather live healthier, with a sound state of mind,

be able to sleep at night, knowing we can be kind.

Thanks for reading.
kyle

frozen wastes

This wasteland, frozen in time, a cold desolate space,

a place that used to thrive, long ago, in distant climes,

the rays of sunlight barely raise the heat,

the freezing mists cling to uncovered skin, a tear turns to ice,

in  this the home of the shattered heart, of love long gone, a place that bites.

The distant sun, an aquantance of better days,

 its searing heat a memory to me, its warmth barely caresses these peaks,

the moonlight, the only friend in sight, a companion so to speak,

alone in this glacial seclusion, the bleak expanse,

A withered dormant feeling, a place of no romance,

The silence, not golden, makes my thoughts louder,

in this abominable, piercing confinement, i flounder,

until the day the bright sun breaks through, finds its heat to lay on me,

a day i hope wont delay in arriving, to bring its warmth and passion,

to set my heart ablaze and set me free from this depression.

thanks for reading,
kyle.

our song

Our song plays on the radio, it preys on my torn heart,

the beat reverberates, the words take me back to the start.

back then, you looked in my eyes and i could feel the love,

you held me we kissed, as the warm rain fell from above.

We always danced to our own tune, you and I, so alive,

the guitar picked perfectly, trapped in a moment, our hearts collide,

A bass line, divine, moved our rhythm, kept us close, held us tight,

to share our kisses all night.

Soon the song ends, the track finishes, the memories diminish.

do I play it again, to feel those dreamlike moments

where we loved like no one else mattered,

or do i find a new song, let those memories shatter?

Thanks for reading.
Kyle

human/kind

We came like a wrecking ball,

a human bulldozer, crushing, crashing, destroying all,

we mess up our world, we destroy and devastate,

one day at a time, its our natural state,

a curse on this world, a blemish on its perfect face,

a destructive force, this human race.

Worse than beasts, they kill for food, to fulfill need,

we do it for sport, for profit, for greed,

we go to school where we learn lifes rules,

if you want to succeed, you have to be cruel,

you could say i hate our race,

for most part you're right, but it has a place.

We also have love, a bond so unique,

a kindness inside that we try to seek,

we have art, a beauty that is ours to share,

to give to others, to show we care,

we have so much good inside,

just need to open our eyes wide,

see the world for its greatness,

and live long in it; it is  gracious and precious.

Thanks for reading

say, okay

A delicate balance, between happy and sad,

dash of hurt, pinch of pain, comes crashing again, bad,

a touch of good and im on cloud nine, head held high, i try,

to sit between, never go too far either way,

though it's easy to say.

A flicker of hope, can be the curse,

lifts you up, to drop you further, making it worse,

A dose of sceptism is needed, never believe it,

never trust a day, to go your way, til its ended,

until you can say.

my mind always on overdrive, overthinks and strives,

to find meaning, where it can't lie, where it doesn't lay,

a moment to reflect, to stop projecting thoughts,

believe in the truth and keep all else at bay,

only then can you say.

today i am okay

Thanks for reading.

secret

A secret, I was never happy, just dulled,trapped in, deflated,

i give my words to build, to find myself, to repair my being, to kick the hatred,

Never liked "me" the person I could see, wasnt the person in my head, a clone with a different mind,

mirrors surround, reflecting back a face of the past, the one inside, the one im trying to find.

I let myself go, didnt care, was deep in the darkness, completely engulfed,

shadows surround, a part had died i thought,

though it goes it was just sleeping, dormant,

biding its time to show, to re-emerge and help me to grow.

I could never share my fear, or despair, it showed me weak, a wreck, a complete mess,

no connection to help, no guide in the dark, no hand to hold,  to express,

Let the drink control, it took hold, wouldnt let go, dragging me down below,

created a person i didnt know, didnt recognise, one  i dispised, cross the streets to avoid this fellow.

This could have beat me, i was in retreat, i lay my anger at everyones feet, on their floors,

I could be mean, a bad face in the streets, i ignored my flaws,

The threat of death gave me a door, a way through a path all new,

a glimps at some meaning, a new briefing, a true begining.

I remembered the me i liked, found the parts i dispised, threw them out,

Slowly cutting away the bad, to replace with good, a new mood, a rejuvination,

so now i build each day, write to let my thoughts shine, to elucidate, and beat my frustration,

my race has begun, a fun run to go on, hope its a long one.

Thanks for reading.
 

Hospital pt 2

Chased down, A kaleidoscopic dreamscape surrounds,

the sounds, buzzing, beeping, distract my thinking,

music, like no other, like nothing ive heard, a true hit,

like a mix, a blend, of the best bands ive seen,

Voices whisper, yet im alone, the words hold meanings, feelings,

if only i could hear their significance,

tone changes, sharply, brakes, a fear drops, a dread,

grips tight as i hold my bed,

The drip in my arm, feeding my vision, or keeping me grounded,

whilst all is flying around me,

see faces from the past, distant memories long lost, they watch over me,

keeping company, holding the fear at bay, keeping my dread away.

Body wants to stop, brain wont let it,

a choice is made, to fight through this, climb from the abyss, to soar above,

grip on to life, to share my love.

 The beauty of all art is that it is never truelly finished, each of my pieces is still in the rough drafts stage of its life, and over time they will nearly all be played around with rewritten, tidied up, given more depth etc, for example i have been reading this piece over and over and can see a lot wrong with the last chunk of it, it is missing a real ending, a good bit of depth and meaning, in time i will find the right way to make this work.


so here is revision 2 (well 2 and all the scribbled out, crumpled up pieces of paper that went into each draft before draft 1 lol) , still work in progress, but already seeing some improvements...

Chased down, a kaleidoscopic dreamscape surrounds,

the sounds, buzzing, beeping, distract my thinking,

their constant rhythm like a heart beating,

as i feel its finally beat me, im retreating.

 

music, like no other, like nothing ive ever heard, a true hit,

like a mix, a blend, of the best bands ive seen,

voices whisper, yet im alone, the words hold meaning, feelings,

if only i could glean their significance.

 

Tone changes, sharply, brakes, a fear drops, my body quakes,

A dread grips tight as i hold my bed,

the drip in my arm, feeding my visions? or keeping me grounded?

whilst all is flying, floating around me,

 

see faces from my past, distant memories, watching over me,

keeping company, holding my fear at bay, keeping the dread away,

my body aches to stop, my mind wont let it,

the grains of sand drip, time slips and passes,

 

A flood of tears as i hear, deaths hand had touched mine,

it was near, my fear drove me on,

i was too young, not ready for death, nor my last breath,

a long battle ahead, to fight to make right, to get strong,

 

The nurse gave comfort, words of encouragement,

my family brought love and warmth, the souls nourishment,

the journey had begun, it would be long,

but i vow to fight on, one step at a time.

 
Thanks for reading.
Kyle