Friday, 21 February 2025

Not okay

 


It's so much easier

to say I'm tired,

than to state out loud

that the anxiety

is getting to me.

It's easier to put on a smile,

when inside your heart is beating

one hundred miles an hour.

It's easier to say I'm fine,

when the thoughts climb

through your mind

like clinging vines

dragging you down.

 

But I'm not okay,

everything is

piling on top of me.

I don't feel comfortable

outside my enclosed room.

I can feel arms grabbing me,

pulling to my tomb,

consuming my thoughts

in a veil of doom.

I can seem distant, aloof,

but in truth I want the same things as you.

Only, my mind sits confused

by the outside world

all of the noise and light

clouding my view.

 

It's easy to put on a mask,

the character you have created

for when people ask,

are you OK mate? You have gone very quiet.

All the while you feel

like you are living through

an earthquake,

until you realise,

it's you with the shakes,

your head that's spinning.

The room isn't shrinking,

the eyes are not all

peering at you.

 

But I'm not fine,

my mind is doing summersaults,

just avoid the mental assault

that it is seemingly

dishing out to itself.

I feel under a cloud,

but even the rain

isn't pouring down on me,

That could have shocked

some life into my mentality.

Instead, I sit in dread,

a sharp stinging inside the head,

telling me that in this place

I'm not wanted. That I'd be safer in bed.

 

It's oh so easy, to just slip away,

fade out the weird strain of reality

which seems to surround you recently.

And sometimes

it's the right thing to do,

take a break from that

which is clouding you.

Find the hope inside,

and all the things

that pour happiness

from your skies.

Let those tears fall

from your eyes.

If you need, take a break

and come back stronger

on the other side.

 

 




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Kyle

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