Friday, 21 February 2025

Sea of insecurity

 


Could someone throw

me a lifebelt? I think I'm sinking

My heart drops to the depths

of my stomach

like a stone

in a lake of frail tears.

I can't condone the way

my mind is thinking,

or control my breathing.

I'm a boat that is leaking

and I'm flooding with doubt

as I try to bail the waters out.

 

I know where my stars are guiding me,

and all I see before me

is a dark empty sea

with storm clouds crowding

the sky with menacing glee.

I don't have any answers,

and that scares me so much more.

I've always been so sure,

but now my heart sits

on the ocean floor,

dragging itself painfully to shore.

 

I know the questions,

but my mind can't reply,

like it got sucked

through a whirlpool

to another time.

The sunset dreams

seem so dark somehow,

when the heart knows

the hurt it could cause,

and in a round

of sarcastic applause

the gulls laugh with glee.

Seeing me sinking

into my own sea

of insecurity.

 

If I was to sit

where my heart

feels at home,

if I let my dreams roam,

if I found the place

where fantasy and reality

share a sweet caress,

then I'd be happy for a lifetime,

but that happiness

comes with knowledge

that my actions

could cause pain to others.

 

A tidal wave of emotion

smoothers the ocean,

as I float upon

these feelings held within,

and I whisper

to the air that will listen.

I love you.

Does that make me a bad person?

Or someone that listens

to his heart sat within still beating?

 

 




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Kyle

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