Kick off your shoes

 

When you are at your lowest,

remember your tribe is waiting,

your people are singing.

Your calling is just over the horizon

dawning.

The moment you dreamed of

is no longer

a fantasy growing

on skeletal trees,

but a fruit of truth

awaiting you to take

a bite and let yourself be...

 

You.

 

Take a moment to breathe in

the blinding positive light.

Then breathe out the negative life

you have wrapped around yourself

like a blanket to smother

the fading flames inside.

Let those fires roar.

Let the conflagration take hold

and like a phoenix

you will...

 

Soar.

 

SO HIGH

 

The biggest obstacle in your way

is you.

The way you

downplay your truth.

The way you

push aside the good you do

and paint it in dulled colours,

not the true rainbow hues

that infuse everything

you put your mind to.

So let your brush flow,

let go of the weight

of expectation,

for greatness is inside

the creation

and you have lakes

of inspiration to drink from

If you kick off your shoes

and dive in...

 

Deep.

Glistening seas

 

When it gets into your bones,

like love washing over you,

euphoria mornings in blissful sun,

or evenings of sin sunken

into a breaking moon.

It’s like flying

on the wings of a dream.

The feeling of music

as it sings to your soul.

 

The raised emotion given wave form.

 

And on those oceans, we flow.

Our limbs move in rhythmic time

with the depths below, the smoke

that blows across us

like fog covered seas, our bodies

imitating trees, our souls set free.

The feel of music

as it caresses your heart.

 

Leaves you feeling

like those seas being torn apart.

 

And as the waves roar and crash,

soaring thoughts thrash in the dark,

fear leaves the soul,

hope takes its place 

deep in the heart, and the

rhythm clicks in your mind,

your legs tick in time,

your hands mimic the clock and 

the waves crash a final chorus line.

 

And as the song drifts into the night.

We are a shoreside under moonlight.

Glistening with the joy of life.

Hedgehog without spikes

 

My mind cycles back

sometimes, sending shockwaves

over my foggy island mind,

and I'm there again.

 

Pushed down, kicked in the ribs.

All I can do to resist is curl up into a ball,

a hedgehog without spikes,

and wait until boredom starts to hit,

or the sun starts to fall.

 

I hear the tick, tick, ticking of time.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Another kick,

another sick feeling

in the pit of my soul.

An easy target. Alone and aloof,

uncomfortable in my own skin

just clinging onto my truth.

 

I wasn't like you; I wasn't like them.

I was different, that made me fair game.

And in my own ADHD way

I accepted it. I even carried the blame.

I could take the beatings.

I could take the hits,

because at least in this storyline, I exist.

 

All through my youth into adulthood,

this continued. Gradually easing

but never fully ceasing.

 

But at no point did I ever raise a fist,

because I don't see violence

as a way to end conflict.

I learnt to stand prouder,

but I also learnt to sink lower,

I stood up when I needed

and took to shadows

when I felt I had no more to give

or anywhere left I could go.

 

For so long I let life pass me by,

or walked into oncoming traffic,

taking refuge in the arms of narcissists.

 

I let them push me, pull me,

prod me, choke me,

and I complied.

And when she hit me...

I took it.

When she hit me,

I accepted the blame.

It must've been my fault.

I must have been in the wrong. 

And I complied.

 

For so long I let life pass me by,

but no more. Not now.

Now I have found my why,

the reason I wake every day,

the power inside.

The magic in the pen.

I walk with pride in my stride.

 

I don't fear the bullies,

the liars and the cheats,

I don't whimper at their feet,

because I know that my truth is real.

I still feel every scar, every bruise,

but from each of those I healed,

 

and after all other

beatings life has given,

mentally and physically,

I've stood on my own two feet,

so, I'm not asking for pity,

or for you to see me as weak.

Just see me is all, accept

when I say I love,

that love is what I offer to all.