Violet dreams

 

Violet dreams

under rust-coloured

moonlight.

Violent screams

hold her too tight.

The fear in her lungs

burning to get out.

The fear in her lungs bubbling,

but they won’t breach the quiet.

 

Mercy, she pleads,

as the blunt force trauma

of a bad dream

drills into her heart.

She sees her restless body 

from somewhere above,

as the world screeches

to a halt in front of her eyes.

 

Can't move,

invisible hands

clamping down.

The shrill piercing

of her internal screams

deafening her,

but still she yells.

Paralysed. The night

clouds her mind.

Capsized. a boat on

stormy seas.

A wave crashing

at her peace.

 

She glances

at the bedside light,

tries to flick her wrist,

to click the switch,

to bring some respite.

Her body resists.

like her arms

are tethered

to a heavy weight.

Her mind crawling

through the thicket

just trying to escape

the demons that encircle.

 

Breathe. Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe.

 

Finally, she screams.

Leave.

 

And the sleep paralysis demon

fades into the

rust-coloured moonlight

Crawl

 

No straight line

between

my backrooms

and the world of your

dreams.

It’s a maze

of alleyways

through which

I have to crawl

down

on my knees.

 

But I’ll stain those knees

with the grime and dirt,

I’ll claw my way through

time and hurt,

I’ll ruin my finest clothes

if it finds the right

way to your mind.

For only there

would it feel like

eternal sunshine.

 

My cross to bear,

my heart to wear.

My love to bare.

I’ll walk for miles

on hands and knees.

And I’d tear at the skin

of my soul.

I’d feel the splinters

embedded in there,

the shards of truth

I’ve held for so long.

If it makes this

sunshine

once again flare

through the blinds,

and for my heart to sing

its lonesome ballad song

one final time.

 

Because I have

only one life to live,

and if I choose to walk

the path of least resistance,

with no obstacle course

with no pitfalls,

if I follow that path

with no rewards,

and my destiny is

just an empty room

with no tenderness,

then it was all for nothing.

When on this road

through the dirt

there is happiness,

if I just accept

that sometimes

life will hurt,

If I let my fear leave

and invite

you to shine

your light on me.

A new dawn

 

The circling of planets,

spinning wonders

across my gaze.

Space.

A spherical maze

of surprises, endlessly

swirling around

this place

we call home.

And I stand

amazed. Watching

a sight

that tiredness can’t erase

from these weary eyes,

as the glow of the stars

sets my heart aflame.

 

For the heavens shine your name.

 

The sky sings again.

In the darkness when

I’m alone. Pondering my place

in this universe,

your name blares again.

like a neon sign from the gods.

 

Your face sits in the moonlight.

 

I can’t lie.

I’m lost in my mind,

but there is

so much beauty

to seek inside.

There is so much

to speak about,

to learn, to love. To shout our hearts

to the skies above.

 

And as the hours tick past

the name never fades.

It stays in place, a monument in space,

as the golden hue

sits over the horizon view

like a streak of hope

in a sky full of stars.

 

A blur of wings

winding through the blue.

A song of spring turning to

a summer chorus.

A new dawn arrives

to reawakened eyes.